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Saturday, May 28, 2011

Action movies and different languages.

I remember my mom telling me once action movies where her favorite ones.  It struck me as an odd choice.  I asked her why, she told me that those were the movies she could watch with me, and even if she didn't understand what was being said, or the subtitles moved too fast for her to catch on, she still could follow what was going on. You see, my mom and me sometimes speak different languages.  I grew up speaking Spanish, English and Portuguese.  As the years went by I didn't see a problem switching from one to the other. My mom grew up speaking her one language and then as an adult tries to adjust to a new language. 
I am more than thankful for all the opportunities my parents have given me.  I realize now that sometimes, a lot of times, I am too wrapped on myself to show them how much I love them, to speak, watch movies, and say 'I love you' in a language that makes it clear how deeply I feel about that.
Today, a friend draw my attention to this poem.  I cried. I realized I've been a selfish brat, in any and all languages. I plan on seeing movies other than action ones, and in a language my mother understand.
Please read below this beautiful and heartbreaking poem by Pat Mora:


Elena

My Spanish isn`t good enough
I remember how I`d smile
Listening my little ones
Understanding every word they´d say,
Their jokes, their songs, their plots
Vamos a pedirle dulces a mama. Vamos.
But that was in Mexico.
Now my children go to American High Schools.
They speak English. At night they sit around the
Kitchen table, laugh with one another.
I stand at the stove and feel dumb, alone.
I bought a book to learn English.
My husband frowned, drank more beer.
My oldest said, 'Mama, he doesn´t want you to
Be smarter than he is' I´m forty,
Embarrased at mispronouncing words,
Embarrased at the laughter of my children,
The grocery, the mailman. Sometimes I take
my English book and lock myself in the bathroom,
say the thick words softly, for if I stop trying, I will be deaf
when my children need my help.



Pat Mora